In the dark, in the car, hands on the steering wheel, I sighed in frustration.
“I can’t do this anymore,” I said out loud, startling myself with the fierceness of my tone over the sound of the car’s heater.
On that frigid January night, I was brittle with fatigue and hollow with disappointment. I had been pouring energy, preparation, and something I imagined would pass for love into a group of women who, it seemed to me, did not appreciate my efforts at all.
Years later, I’m embarrassed to admit to the self-pity and resentment that rode home with me on that long ago miserable, wintry night. I had succumbed to the deathly trap of focusing on people, needing their approval and their appreciation to feel that my ministry was valued and that I was worthy as a person.
Dependence on human approval is like chasing after the wind. Exactly how many people have to approve of me before I can feel secure?Tweet
God warned his people Israel through the prophet Jeremiah that when we look to our fellow humans as our first and most important support, the loudest voices in our hearts, we are entering a barren desert:
“Thus says the Lord: ‘Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength,
whose heart turns away from the Lord. He is like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see any good come.
He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness, in an uninhabited salt land’”
(Jeremiah 17:5-6 ESV).
I was feeling like a parched dwarf juniper with roots sunk into dry sand! Today, I’m sharing my story of leaving the desert behind over at Living by Design where you’ll find folks whose ministry is to give without cost from the spring of living waters.
Thanks for joining me there,
When frail humans begin to depend upon other frail humans for what only God can provide, the only possible outcome is disappointment.Tweet
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